its not getting better..

im trying sooo hard to make myself happy by smiling alot and being mad all the times.. but seriously it dosent help.. sigh~~ i feel soo empty. as if im hollow... and seriously, sometimes i really think that everyone are just hypocrites~~( im sorry guys, for saying this..) some people wont care if u are feeling bad or what, they just continue their lifes, cos they are happy and its none of their concern whether u are alright or not.. thats reality.. nah,, maybe im just asking too much of other people.. they have their lifes to live, sure they cant be bothered about me~~