over and over again..

i think i'm the dumbest person in the world... i LOVE doing things which i know i'll get myself hurt. but still, i cant help it.. what happened in the past happened again. im such a fool.. i will NEVER learn my lesson or what-so-ever. everything is just gona repeat all over again.. i dont want it to happen. sigh* everything just caught me by surprise. i cannot even control myself/my heart.. i feel like a total idiot whenever i have you in my mind.. i know i will NEVER get anything in return no matter what i do, i end up only having my heart torn into irrepairable bits and pieces.. but still, i dont learn my lesson. i'd continue repeating the same things over and over again. cos i just cant control my heart..... people like me should be put to dieee....