i feel the shades of grays.

you said that i'm weird cos i don't seem very much affected.

i said that why should i show how i feel to everyone.

i don't like doing that, i never like doing that.

why can't i keep the grief to myself? why can't i weep alone in the middle of the night? why can't i smile even when i'm sad? why can't i laugh even when i'm sad? why can't i keep things to myself?

p.s.: if god helps, i'd be building a church right now.